thoughts

This morning I sit at my little desk, looking out the window to my green backyard. While I sit here and sip my coffee, many thoughts run through my mind. How do I invest myself in the birth process without owning the process. This has been struggle for me, there seems to be a balance, one that I have not yet been able to manage. Does one ever totally manage it? I need to be present, invested and supportive...yet, keep some sort of distance...everything is not up to me or my 'fault'. If a Mama needs to transfer to the hospital it doesn't mean that I have failed, or that she has failed...we don't have control over everything.